been a bit busy.

So, I was just kinda laying around, and I look up at my bookmarks, see "Blogger" up there, and immediately began to feel guilty. I resisted an update for the longest time, but I suppose one is due.

I recently started my new job for Executive Cellular, selling T-Mobile. I like it, it's just really long days. I'm talking 8am until 11pm. Even though it's only four days a week, that's still quite a bit of working. I was getting used to four or five hour days, so this is quite a shock to the system. Whatever though, I'm making it work. I work with some interesting people for the most part.

As for everything else? Well, there's not much going on. If I'm being honest, I've just been a bit lonely. I figured living back in the area would promote more togetherness with friends and such, but it has certainly failed to do so. Today was a good day, though. I was with Joey basically all day, went out and did some stuff. Actually, I just got a call from his daughter telling me to "come over", so I will be doing that momentarily.

So, all things accounted for, things are looking a bit up. Besides a serious lack of love and companionship/friendship going on, at least I'm making things happen. I should also be getting my license back in the near future. As soon as that happens, I can start living again. I can finally start going out at night and just getting into random adventures. Maybe I'll find whatever I'm looking for eventually. But until then, I'll just keep on working, and maybe my personal life will stop being so empty.

There's so much going through my head, but it's pointless to go into it all. This whole entry seemed a bit vague, maybe I'll actually make a meaningful post later. At this point, though, I'm really worried that I'm going to be alone for quite some time. I viewed myself living under much different circumstances by now. But, as I like to point out, when you set yourself up for something, all that leaves room for is failure. If you make it, that's all good and well, but if you make it without setting it as a goal, it's the same satisfaction. You are getting what you want, regardless. It's just difficult for me to set goals for myself in any way. Besides obviously getting my license back and stuff that's simple, I avoid it. I've become well aware of the disappointment that comes with setting up a life plan. I'm nowhere near anything that I planned out.

All I was looking for was:
1) Somebody to spend life with
2) A job that didn't suck, that I could at least somewhat enjoy

And, in summation, to be satisfied with the quality of my life. It's taken a bit of time, but I'm hoping I am at a decent place for the fulfillment of #2. I was more concerned with #1 to be frank, but I'm coming to the realization that I'll be back at square one as far as that is concerned very soon.

One more thing, I'm completely starved for affection, if that hasn't been made clear by this. I just want some nice, maybe rough, love making to take place in the near future. I'm just about losing my mind.

Off to see the little munchkin, going over to Joeys. Adieu.