okay...

Well, I went through another whole day of not leaving the house. I'm getting a bit fed up. However, I must state that I managed an extremely positive mood throughout the day.

I've had nothing but time to do some thinking. I've decided to see how much money I can make at my current job for a little bit longer, and then I want to compare the pros and cons to going back to new york. I finally can drive, so I think that I can deliver for my uncle, and I would love to just drive around all day. Plus, I don't think anything around here is going to work out for me. I am tired of waiting for something that's never going to happen. I want to make something work, and maybe I need a change of venue.

I'm off tomorrow again, which somewhat blows. At least my dad is off too, so I won't be alone all day with nothing to do. I'll make sure we find something to entertain us for at least a little bit of time. It really sucks, I didn't talk to anybody really all day. It's a shame. I like to think I'm at least decent company... I don't know. Whatever.

Well, I got some more shit on my mind, but nothing really new. I'm just going over this whole New York thing over and over again in my head. I like my job, but to be happy, the one thing that would really help isn't going to happen, and I don't really have anybody around here. Maybe I can start anew somewhere else. That's what I'm hoping for.

I guess we'll see... I'll give it a few weeks, since I just really started working. But, I'm not going to wait very long if I'm going to do this. I'm going to keep enough money on hand so I can move into a place up there. I can always hang out with Danny if I live up there, it's only about a 45 minute drive, which is nothing. I could actually go to NYC every day if I wanted to. So... it seems like a pretty good idea.

Time will tell.. I need to remedy my situation.