New days.

So I got started on Lexapro earlier this week. I think it's already helping. I don't dwell so much on the fact that I've lost Ann. I mean, when I think about it, it still sucks, but if she doesn't want me, I can't do anything about it. I even find myself not even thinking about texting her, which is good. Usually I'm fighting the urge all day. I just wish we could have a friends with benefits deal or something, I just want to touch her again. Nobody gets me going like she does. But oh well, I guess I'll just have to find love elsewhere.

So yea, days have been a little bit better. I seem to be in a somewhat better mood overall. I hope the weather finally turning around will help, too. I started a second job at the Gold Buyers at the Mall stand in Granite Run. It's nice to have something to do on my days off. Ben told me he'd give me any extra hours I want, but I don't want a 12 hour shift on my day off. It's nice to go in to the Gold Buyers place and work a short shift, and then have the rest of the day off. This coming week, I only have off Tuesday and Thursday (though I usually only work four days at ECP), so I only have the two days off. I will work at the gold place on those two days for four hours each. Imagine if I had to work a 12 hour shift one of those days. That just sounds awful. Five full days is enough as it is. Oh well, gotta make some extra money!

I think that with this second job, I'm really starting to do something for myself. I'm not just settling for what I had. I'm taking that extra step to do more and get more in return. I'm also doing online surveys and stuff, and I almost have enough amassed to pay for the Kindle that I want to get so desperately.

I was supposed to go see Lindsay tonight, and I was on my way when she called back to cancel, because her boyfriend/ex/whatever was coming over and he's crazy. Why do I only get attention from girls who have somebody else instead. I guess I'm like the second place guy, the next best thing. Whatever, I'll find somebody who loves me. I hope it's sooner rather than later, but whatever. I can wait, I just really want to find somebody to play around with. I'm sexually frustrated, to say the least.

Looks like I got Amy the job at ECP, so that's good. She'll probably start either late this coming week or the next. Can't wait to get paid on Thursday night. It can't come soon enough.

Okay, this was basically a pointless update, but it's 4AM easter morning and I'm still awake. I'm going to attempt to get a couple hours of sleep now, because I may actually go to church with my mother and sister in the morning.

Have a nice holiday anybody (even though I think religion is silly)!